It’s easy to get discouraged and depressed right now. I feel a bit in limbo, and that’s not a great feeling at all!
The future is so unknown. To be fair, the future is always unknown–but we don’t admit that to ourselves. We plan our lives with comfort, scheduling vacations, parties, and general business as if those days are really guaranteed.
Nothing feels more uncomfortable than half-plans. “We will do this, but we don’t know the outcome…” Normally when we make plans, we do it with security–not taking too big of a risk. Risk is scary.
That’s what makes Victor’s paperwork so difficult. We don’t know how it will work. We don’t know when he will get to cross la frontera. There’s a lot of risk in us filing thousands of dollars worth of applications with no guarantee.
Here’s a fun fact for you: did you know it is possible to be approved on a visa, but still denied access to the United States? True story.
Last week was rough–one setback after another. Sometime late last week I though of something my husband said on the night we met. He said, “I believe that God sends us hard times because he is preparing us for the good times that are coming. And maybe we wouldn’t appreciate it if we didn’t have the hard time first.” A wise man, my husband.
So this is my comfort again:
Precious thought, my Father knoweth; In His love I rest,
For whate’er my Father doeth
Must be always best.
Well I know the Heart that planneth Naught but good for me;
Joy and sorrow interwoven–
Love in all I see.
It’s so easy to get discouraged, but I know that is why I have to keep pressing forward! The good things are never easy. And although I feel scared and nervous, I also try to keep my eyes forward. God has a plan for us, or this situation wouldn’t be the one we are facing. We just have to wait for it to be revealed.