I’ve been thinking about this miraculous family unit–and how the gears all work together to make things run smoothly. One gear out-of-place and things get rough. Squeaky gears need a little attention to get going. When everything works together–progress can be made.
My little squeaky is really growing up so fast. I’ve heard people say that all my life, “They grow up too fast.” I never knew how true those words were until now. Her six weeks are literally just around the corner, and this mama is heading back to work. It’s a good thing I really love my other job (teaching)–because I might start squeaking too.
I was thinking about an event from a couple of years past. My ex and I were at a church convention, and were playing with all the kiddos. Suddenly, he picked up a little girl and began swinging her wildly around by her arms. Well, my sister’s arms popped out-of-place when my uncle swung her like that–and I began freaking out. The mama of the little girl said to me, “Jania, this is why God gave us a Mom and a Dad.”
I suppose I could twist that to mean that God gave us Mamas to keep the Daddy’s on the right track… But in all honestly, she proceeded to tell me that kids need a little rough play every once in a while.
Kids also need time alone. This is what my husband has taught me this week. The Mama in me wants to cuddle, love on, and snuggle my little bug all the time. I want her naps to be beside me on the couch–not out of my sight. I want to jump when she says, “Wah” and fix everything wrong in her little world. I want to make sure that she doesn’t get hurt by padding everything around her. I want her to have music and sweet sounds to sleep to. I want her to get to rock while she still fits inside the swing.
This is why she has Papi. Papi said to me the other day, “She really needs some time alone. She’s going to get used to being in your arms.” I forget the word he used to tell me that she would be spoiled. I let him take her, change her diaper, and he returned without the baby. And guess what?
Her world didn’t crash.
She didn’t cry in outrage.
My heart didn’t break in two.
And I learned a lesson.
My baby doesn’t really need to be with me every second of every day (and night). She needs peace and quiet just as much as you or I do. Logic (and my Mama) tells me that if she were unhappy, she would have let me know with more than “Wah.” Because when that
Wah” becomes “Waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!” you bet we both go running.
Since then, I’ve tried to let little Sugar Bug do a little exercise on the floor–even when I am yearning for cuddles. She is becoming stronger–lifting her head and looking around. She’s learning to touch with intention, and loves to tickle her toy that jingle-jangles. And Mama is learning to give a little growing space to her bebita.
See, God really does know what he’s doing. He gives us Mamas to cuddle and love on, and Daddys to help us grow. (That doesn’t mean that Papi doesn’t get his cuddles in there too, or that Mama doesn’t have words of Advice for growth…) Mamas dresses us up pretty every morning. Papi wraps diapers in a no-frills-this-will-leak-soon way. Papi settles us down at night with no nonsense. And Mami hums a tune as she climbs in bed beside baby–her body rocking even though her baby isn’t in her arms. Mama scrubs baby up in the kitchen sink. Daddy worries that baby will be hurt from leftover pepper juice and germs. So how does it all work if Mama and Papi are so different?
Mami and Papi and learning to keep mouths shut. This is allowing that machine of a family unit to get moving the way things were intended by a higher power. Because the minute we start tinkering–trying to change the way things are done–it all will fall apart.